Take this and walk.

Every morning I take a second and think about how grateful and amazing things are in my life right now. I’ve had to go through all the hurt and pain to appreciate it. I think about the people that are worth it… the people that care about me as much as I do them. I like noticing the small things like lights hanging from trees while drinking wine with my closest girl friends on a spring night… or mentally taking a step back while in a group and realize these people know your name and have shared themselves with you. A hug instead of just a hello, a phone call from a friend that you haven’t talked to in a while and you share so much without a hint of separation…. having friends in town from all over the country… Appreciation is a habit that should be acquired and shared. Appreciation is something that is addictive. Share it. 

Take this and walk.

Avoiding the Case of the Mondays.

Real Talk? Whatevs…

It all steams from one conversation to the next, and makes you think about things on a night you’re not expecting it.

I want someone to prove me wrong on my idea of what a real connection with someone else should be. Someone that says they’ll stick around and means it… better yet… I want to talk to someone that doesn’t promise. I want someone that doesn’t promise to be different. That’s always a bad sign. Just saying that you’re not like them, proves that you’re just like them. I call you disappearing within a month… tops. Okay, okay…  this sounds extremely pessimistic and disheartening, but it isn’t that way for me. It’s the acceptance that people are unpredictable. It’s a peace I’ve found. Acceptance and unpredictability can go hand in hand, and you’re better off keeping them in the same realm. Relying on yourself is the biggest favor you can ever do for yourself. I’m happy to have learned that young.

…one day…  I hope someone will surprise me.

I find myself in this weird state thinking that this feeling I have once in a while is me missing someone. It’s not someone in my life currently and most likely someone I don’t know yet… but I miss them. I sound like a Sandra Bullock movie…

For right now, however, I’m okay just being here, being myself, and letting life be what it may be and will be. Life is supposed to be surprising, chaotic, inspiring, disappointing and everything in between.

It’s funny, I’m listening to 9 crimes by Damien Rice. A song at one point in my life that explained the chaos and unpredictability of “love” and how small and worthless I felt. I couldn’t listen to the song without crying (which I later turned into my ringtone on my phone so I would quit being such a wuss and confront those ugly feelings… and get rid of the person that made me feel like that).

I look back on the things I’ve experienced and been through… and I feel like I’ve lived a few lifetimes. I know there are so many people that have a similar story to mine, but mine is my own and It’s something that is an unamended crack in my foundation that will never be put back. No one is whole, but we all try to be whole for someone else… We should be whole for ourselves. I’m happy being independent and honestly, depending on someone else is the scariest thing I can think of at this point in my life… and I think that’s okay.

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Title: What He Wrote Artist: Laura Marling 10 plays
Laura Marling - What he wrote


Forgive me Hera, I cannot stay He cut out my tongue, there is nothing to save Love me oh Lord, he threw me away He laughed at my sins, in his arms I must stay He wrote, I'm broke, please send for me But I'm broken too and spoken for, do not tempt me Her skin is white and I'm light as the sun So holy light shines on the things you have done So I asked him how he became this man How did he learn to hold fruit in his hands And where is the lamb that gave you your name He had to leave though I begged him to stay Left me alone when I needed the light Fell to my knees I wept for my life If he had of stayed you might understand If he had of stayed you never would have taken my hand He wrote I am low please send for me But I'm broken too and spoken for, do not tempt me And where is the lamb that gave you your name He had to leave though I begged him to stay Begged him to stay in my cold wooden grip Begged him to stay by the light of this ship Me fighting him fighting light fighting dawn The waves came and stole him and took him to war He wrote I'm broke, please send for me But I'm broken too and spoken for, do not tempt me Forgive me Hera I cannot stay He cut out my tongue, there is nothing to save Love me oh Lord, he threw me away He laughed at my sins, in his arms I must stay He wrote I'm broke, please send for me But I'm broken too and spoken for, do not tempt me We write, that's alright, I miss his smell We speak when spoken to, that suits us well That suits us well, that suits me well
3 years ago on 03/17/11 at 01:34am
Title: Drumming Song Artist: Florence And The Machine 0 plays

This is my anthem right now.

Drumming song- Florence + The Machine

Note: Listen… LOUD with headphones.

There’s a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you’re around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

There’s a drumming noise inside my head
That throws me to the ground
I swear that you should hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

I ran to a tower where the church bells chime
I hoped that they would clear my mind
They left a ringing in my ear
But that drum’s still beating loud and clear

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

I run to the river and dive straight in
I pray that the water will drown out the din
But as the water fills my mouth
It couldn’t wash the echoes out
But as the water fills my mouth
It couldn’t wash the echoes out

I swallow the sound and it swallows me whole
Till there’s nothing left inside my soul
As empty as that beating drum
But the sound has just begun

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

There’s a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you’re around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

There’s a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you’re around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

3 years ago on 03/11/11 at 01:22pm
Title: Another Day Artist: The Album Leaf 0 plays

So beautiful.

The Album Leaf - Another day

3 years ago on 02/08/11 at 03:47pm

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Very few people take my photo. I’m usually left to doing it myself…thanks to Chandra for this one. Love Nashville. Love Willie. 

yes please.

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